The results are in...

The surgery went well. The dr. found a small amount of endometriosis (I'm not sure where yet). There was no scar tissue left in my uterus from the miscarriage. This is something I was and have been extremely concerned about because we chose not to have a D&C after the miscarriage. I guess I made the right decision. He also found something unusual. One of my fallopian tubes was tucked behind my bowels. He said I must have been born this way. He moved it back in the appropriate location. He said he's since this a few other times. Some of the ladies got pregnant immediately after moving the tube, some did not. So I'm at home, drugged up on pain meds. On another positive note, I signed my hubby and I up for adoption classes. They start in January. I'm sooooo excited about adopting! Who knows we may end up with a couple of babies next year!!!!
Pray that the recovery goes well...I'm hurting more in my neck than anywhere else right now. I guess it's the way they had me during surgery. I'm really only hurting in my stomach when I cough, move, or laugh! My throat hurts a lot (from the tube) and I'm coughing and my voice is very scratchy. But other than those things and being out of it...I'm doing ok. I guess I'm really doing better than I thought I would be. I've heard the 2nd day after surgery is the worst--look out tomorrow! Hopefully I'll be ok.

Blessings!

Surgery Day is Here...

Well I guess the title explains it all. My surgery (laparoscopy and hysteroscopy) are today at 1:00. Wish me luck! I'm already in pain from the cyst I had removed on my back last week. I thought little cyst, little incision. Boy was I wrong. I have a 3 inch incision sewn up in three layers. Can we say ouch!!! Anyway, I guess after today we'll know what we're really dealing with in the infertility department. Hopefully good news! I signed DH and I up for our adoption classes last week. They start in January. I'm excited about that too.

Well, it's off to go pack an overnight bag (just in case). Wish me luck!

Blessings!

OK...so here's what's up

My hubby and I have decided to pursue the adoption route. We are not giving up on TTC. In fact, we are going to continue with it. I'm going to have lap surgery right before Christmas to check for possible endo or other things that may be going on down there. Hopefully, we'll have good news OR they can zap what's in there. Then, we will try a couple more rounds of IUIs.

We feel that God has really led us in the adoption direction, but we don't feel like He's saying don't TTC. It's really a neat story, but it's long and I really don't feel like typing all of that tonight. Maybe some other time.

Jill is having a giveaway of her favorite things. Go visit her site and enter. You only have until tomorrow night! So hurry!

Well...I know it's been a while....

I've been in hiding. I've kept up with all of you, but I didn't want to be around. I'm so lost. I don't know what to do. I feel like I might be going back into a depression, but I'm fighting it hard. It may be the change of seasons or just because of our situation or both.

Today is going to be a tough day for me. We are having a family portrait of my DH's family (just the kids and grandkid)...it's just another reminder that we STILL don't have kids. Our twins should be 1 1/2 old now. I wonder what they would be like??? Too cute to imagine I guess.

Anyway, we're trying to decide what to do. I can do one more IUI and then if it doesn't work have the laproscopic surgery for the possible endo in December. But here's my problem. It turns out that my insurance did pay for all but $140 of the IUI. They didn't bill it as an IUI. They billed it as office visit, supplies, etc. That doesn't sound like a problem, right? It's actually very good. Here's my dilemma. I only have $5000 lifetime fertility insurance coverage. I have around $3200 left. If I have the lap surgery, will it be billed as fertility? I hope not. If not, then I can still have other IUI's. If so, that may be all we can do.

Does anyone know how the surgery would be billed?

I'm just wondering who all follows my blog. If you do, could you please leave a quick comment so that I can start following yours if I'm not already. I'm already following 43 blogs, what's a few more! I'm very faithful. I read everyone's blogs EVERYDAY!!! I love keeping up with each of you and your journey through this horrible thing. Most of the time you give me hope. I celebrate when you have success and cry when there is failure. So please leave a comment, so I can get to know more of you. Thanks!

Blessings!

Casey

No...BFN...

I feel myself going backward back into the depression. I knew this time would be the hardest negative to take so far. But after 25, you think we'd be used to it. I feel like this was our last option. We have no money for IVF, another IUI, adoption, etc. I have $50 in my savings account. We're broke. So I guess it will be just me and N for a little while longer. I don't think we'll ever have a baby. I may not be on here for a while.

Blessings to you (but not to me)

Well...

I took a test this morning and it was negative. I know it could still be too early (even though it has been exactly 14dpiui. I used a dollar test that I had. I don't know how good those are anyway. I guess I'll still have my beta done next week unless AF rears her ugly head. I really hope the test was wrong or it's too early. I can't have a negative result again. This will be 26 negative results in a row for us. I told my husband that I'm terrified it's going to be negative. I'm even more terrified that it's going to be positive. We've only had one positive result ever (but that only lasted 9 weeks), so that would be fairly new territory. I'm even more scared that it will be positive but end up being a tubal pregnancy or I'll have a miscarriage. I remember praying after my miscarriage that God would not allow me to get pregnant unless I was going to carry the baby to term and it be healthy. I just don't think I could handle another miscarriage. I went into a deep depression that lasted 1.5 years with the last one.

Has anyone else taken a test the day 14dpiui and it be negative but then have the beta be positive? I'm still trying to have hope and faith, but it's really hard. I'm sort of down in the dumps now. I knew I shouldn't have taken that test this morning!

I hope all is going well for all of you!

Blessings!

The wait is killing me!

This 2ww is about to kill me! I just want to know if we wasted over $800 (so far-I haven't received all of the bills yet) or if we were successful. I so want to take a hpt, but I'm terrified of the results! I go in on Monday for the beta, but I don't know if I can wait that long!

Blessings!