Frustrated...

I'm so frustrated right now. I'm 13 days late but the pregnancy test still says negative. I'm ready to start my time of the month so I can get on my new medicine, but if my body won't work with me, how is all this supposed to work? If I'm truly not pregnant (according to the doctor there's no way I could have ovulated which means there's no way I could be pregnant), I wish aunt flow would just come on. I'm ready to get on this new medicine so hopefully I can start feeling better. I feel like I'm in major depression mode again. (another side effect of low progesterone). I don't want to talk to anyone especially Nathan. He just doesn't understand. I'm the one dealing with this, not him. I just need to feel good for one day. I feel like crap all the time. I'm always tired, my back always hurts, and I usually feel pretty cranky. I don't fall asleep easily nor do I sleep through the night. (Again, all more side effects of low progesterone.) I just want to feel better. I still want to be a mommy, but I want to feel better first!

Finally...an answer

So I finally have an answer as to why I haven't been able to get pregnant. I have low progesterone, which regulates ovulation (among other things). I haven't been ovulating regularly. I guess the only reason I got pregnant to begin with the first time was I had only been off the pill for 1 1/2 months so I still had some progesterone in my system. But I didn't have enough to sustain the pregnancy. At least I know what's wrong now. The doctor is putting me on letrozole (sort of like Clomid) to help with regulation. We'll see how this goes. I feel a little better now knowing that it was not anything I was doing wrong that was keeping us from getting pregnant and also that I didn't do anything wrong to cause the miscarriage. It was just an imbalance of hormones and the fact that my progesterone level is low. My husband is fine after going through his test. That's another relief off our minds. Now on to the drugs and see if they work!